Fun and work, there’s a balance

The problem with having fun is you want to have more of it.

It’s sad to say but having fun has become a problem.

This all started when we tried to diversify Jess’s week. Jess has been with a day program, five days a week for awhile now. It’s a social group that is kept on the go. The only downside is that they aren’t able to support her AAC device very well (They try but there is too much turnover to maintain consistency. This is a chronic problem in this field) In the beginning of the year, an opportunity became available for Jess to partake in another program for two days a week, we jumped at it. The second group said they could/would support her Talker and their focus was on pre-vocational activities. This seemed like a pretty good balance so we took a chance.

Unfortunately, the good times were not to last. A few months in, the second group fired their manager without finding a replacement first. This left the girls working the program without any guidance or support. When the job trainer that we liked pulled me aside and shared that she was looking for another job, I realized this support program was not going to survive. Immediately I asked Jess’s first group if she could return to five days a week. Was told YES, they have space available. In order to get the ball rolling, we had to end the second group and submit our request. I didn’t learn till after the fact that even though they technically could accommodate Jessie, they didn’t have the support staff which meant Jess would not be able to return until they hired more people. It’s now going on two months and Jess is without services on Thursday and Friday.

Self-direction means we are ‘suppose” to be able to customize Jess’s week and create a program that meets her needs. I wish that before we tried to “expand” Jess’s opportunities that we had been forewarned “change at our own risk”. This is when reality smacked me in the face. There just aren’t enough quality programs available.

As they say, when you are given lemons, make lemonade. We have been making the best of Jess’s two days at home. In fact, there’s been too much fun.  We’ve taken advantage of our time together by doing things we haven’t had time to do and also work on tasks that she needs more time to complete. 

The result of too much fun reared it’s head last Tuesday morning. Jess saw a different driver and refused to get in the car and go to the program. When Jess says no, there usually is more to it. Based on what I’ve been able to gather, Jess has been listening to the drivers’ talk/complain and now there is only one support staff that she likes. I’m constantly reminded how people talk in front of the non-verbal, assuming that they don’t understand. I explained to Jess that just because they are unhappy, doesn’t mean they are unhappy with her, it doesn’t mean that they don’t like her either and not to take it personally. I think this is a girl thing. Anyhow, I explained that there are parts of their job they just don’t like. In this case, they don’t like driving.

When Jess refused to get in the car, I gave her a choice. Either go to the program or spend the day in her room. She chose her room.  One of the most effective ways to make my point is to ignore her, no eye contact and no talking. Here’s the rub. The last thing I want to do is not model language. It’s important to treat her like anyone else. Sometimes the silent treatment is a very effective tool. However, It was suggested that I still use her Talker, but not directed at her and I found this effective.

Punishment is too strong a word. Jess wasn’t being punished per se, but I don’t want to reward her by making this time at home too enjoyable. It’s her job to attend her program. The purpose of her program is to make her world bigger. Even though it’s a social group, she has picked up life skills. She goes with the flow when transitioning from one activity to another. We also are enjoying each other’s company on shopping errands and when traveling too.

I explained to Jess that she has her work to do and I have mine and neither of us can accomplish this if we don’t do our own work. The following day, Jess was back to schedule.

By Thursday, it was a different story. It’s our day for fun. We went to the market, cooked together, did laundry, had company for lunch and then we went shopping at our favorite store in town.

The store features Tyler’s Art

This time, she wasn’t shy about talking. We all love men who listen!

Chance on Main is a little shop where Jess can browse to her heart’s content. When we arrived, she saw a young man she knew. Jess is a little flirt. She was all smiles and giggles. This was the first time that they both paid attention to each other, he was smiles too. I love capturing these moments. 

I like this bell

Jess was all giggles seeing Tyler. She is a fan of his art

While I was picking out a gift, Jess checked out a backpack, bracelets, chocolate covered coffee beans and then settled on a pair of Elephant pants, which she tried on when we returned home. To my surprise, they are adorable! Not only are they cute, but 10% goes directly to supporting elephants (this is something my mother would have loved. Our family has a special fondness for elephants).

Jess sporting her new Elephant pants

The majority of the items at Chance on Main supports the local community as well as from abroad. It’s a store whose soul focuses on opportunity, not fast fashion. There is something charming about the homemade gift. I was raised that these were the most valuable of all, the ones that you crafted yourself. Check out tyler’s blog Something to Say.

This long Memorial Day weekend, we are balancing work with fun. Jess needs to help me work in the yard and tidy the house before company comes. I think we will set a place for my father at the table. I just realized that he would have turned 100 in February.

After we have fun, we will all go back to work.. work gives us purpose, fun needs no explanation…life is about balance.

An AAC social experiment

I’m always game for a new challenge, especially if it will improve AAC skills. The conversations I have with Jess are good when we are on the move, however, our day to day life is rather mundane and predictable. The end result is we look at each other knowing what is to be said next. I’m not saying that we read each other’s minds but I find that I repeat myself:

  • Please wash your hands & then set the table.
  • Please put your things away.
  • Please get ready for bed and then we can watch some TV. 

Hmm, my examples sound so much more polite in print than when I say them.

To be honest, predictable language has more to do with the husband than it does Jessie. After nearly 28 years of marriage, we’ve fallen into the trap of knowing looks.  I hate to admit that as a family unit, we all suffer from “implied conversation”. I think we are in need of a reboot.

Speak for Yourself is doing a social experiment where we maintain a dedicated modeling schedule. We are to carve out 15 minutes a day, for two weeks where we model language on our AAC devices. For us, the best time for uninterrupted modeling is first thing in the morning, from breakfast till Jess’s ride arrives.  The next best time to catch conversation is before, during and after dinner when we are altogether.

What I’m going to share next really doesn’t have much to do with the “social experiment”, but rather an ah-ha moment. There’s a unique feature on the Speak for Yourself app called Hold that Thought. Its purpose is to save the phrase or sentence you were building so you can stop and answer a question. As we all know, conversations aren’t always linear, we all subject hop. Jess uses this feature more for monologuing than for the intended purpose. I, on the other hand, repeat myself every morning. These aren’t necessarily stock phrases that I want to add to the Talker but for the full effect, I want this spoken quickly, with authority.

On second thought, I could add phrases for the husband?

  • How was your day?
  • Anything new happen at work?
  • Honey, would you please pick up a bottle of wine?

Well, maybe the last one should be a preprogrammed phrase, but you get the idea.  There’s more than one way to use Hold that Thought. Actually, it was intended for this use, but I’m realizing it can be handy around the house.

This isn’t modeling language as the experiment intended, but the more I use SFY with Jess, the more she has to say. It’s a matter of finding the right icebreakers. 

We have some uninterrupted time right now. “All I have to do” is find something that is interesting to talk about it. Easier said than done. Jess doesn’t care much about my weeding, doing laundry or running errands, but I did take Roxy on a hike. I think I will show Jess the video of Roxy running as fast as she can to get this conversation started and we will just wing it from there.

If I were a momma deer

look closely...

look closely…

Living in a rural setting, you share your property.  For many years, our yard has been used as a baby day care.  Moms would drop their kids off, tell them to stay put and they’d take off.  This ended during the time we had our Golden Retrievers.  Even though the rule was not to bring anything home that began with the letter B… no babies, no birds, no bunnies, our cats and dogs would have a lapse in judgement and everything was considered fair game. Over time, the moms chose other places to leave their children.

deer aren't afraid of Roxy

deer aren’t afraid of Roxy

Roxy has a different relationship with the wildlife. When she was a puppy, she didn’t chase and the deer didn’t run.

This morning, Roxy was looking out the front window.  Something had caught her attention.  All we saw was what looked like either tree debris, or a crouching rabbit. Then husband saw the head pop up. It was a fawn!

The Mom was not in sight. I walked out in my bare feet and had a blanket wrapped around me .  At 6am, the grass was wet and cold between my toes.  Baby must be a few days old because she didn’t move nor bat an eye.  I read that the instinct to flee doesn’t kick in till they are a week old.

There are days I’m envious of the freedom mamma deer has. Except for the fact that mamma raises the child alone and the part that they eat the babies pee and poo, which removes any scent that would alert a predator, they get to drop their kid off and go.  If the fawn is a buck, it will stay with mom for a year. If it’s a doe, then she may stay with mom up to two years.  In contrast, Elephants nurse their babies for 4-6 years and stay with mom for about 16 years.

Our family dynamic is more like the Elephant, however, we’ve well passed the 16 year mark.  Someday, Jessie will live independently with supports. When I say independently, I mean not with us.  If this morning is an indicator of her life choices, Jess is going to need supervision to keep her honest.  I discovered her in the midst of making a bowl of oatmeal.  This is a good thing!   The point I walked in, she was doing whipped cream shooters from the can.  Fun things tend to bite you in the ass.

In some ways Jessie has the best life.  We try to give her as much freedom as she can handle. This is a slow process because she’s a rebel (her middle name should have been James).  She likes to test the line to see how far she can go.  In hindsight, I’m okay with this, but when in the moment, my spirit isn’t as understanding.

This week has been a hard one.  Jess needs to carry her Talker like it were a pocket book, across her body.  Unfortunately, the case for her Talker broke where the carrying strap attaches. She’s pretty good about taking responsibility for her Talker, but I know what her limits are.  If she were to carry it by a handle, it would be forgotten.  I’m no different. if I set something down for a moment, the likelihood for it to be left behind is great.  Like mother like daughter.

As for the case, it broke Sunday night. It was mailed for repair the next day.  To be received the following day then shipped home by Friday.  I’ve always been impressed with the AMDI customer service (thanks Mike).  When we had another device, it was a minimum two-week turnaround.

IMG_9809For now, she’s using a necklace that has 11 words. Even though she hasn’t used this for three years, the transition was seamless.  We talked about the case being broken and that for now she’d have to use the necklace.  She pointed to “I use symbols to talk”.  Then pointed to “I’m hungry” and then proceeded to use her back up Talker so she could be specific as to what she wanted to eat.  After that, she pointed to “leave me alone”.  This exercise proved that our low tech AAC would work in a pinch.

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this is one of her necklaces

Yesterday, the first thing Jess did when she got home was get the backup Talker.  She seems to appreciate having all of her words at her fingertips.  Recently I added the phrase “guess what” and she says this before sharing about her day.

This afternoon when Jessie returns, I want to tell her what happened with the baby deer.  Just as a watched pot doesn’t boil, a mamma deer doesn’t return for her baby until no one is looking.  All that was left was a warm indent in the grass. Fawns are to be left alone and not touched.  Mom may not be a helicopter parent, but she always comes back.

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she made herself small by curling up tight as a ball. I’m sure this kept her warm too.

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She tried not to look at me

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all that was left was a tiny warm spot on the lawn.

Yes, there are times I wish I were …
a doe,
a deer,
a female deer…

My mind thinks in song…I believe The Sound of Music is in order for tonight’s entertainment.

PS- did you know the most common name for a deer was Abby?

Freedom of speech

IMG_5649What is the mission of AAC awareness month?  It is to educate the majority about the silent minority. It is to make the world know that AAC allows us to share our thoughts and express our needs. It is to dispel the myth that if someone isn’t able to talk, it doesn’t mean that they are unable to think. Having an AAC voice means we can make our own choices. Bottom line, AAC allows us to have freedom of speech.